well it's been a long time since I've last written. I can't really help it though. Life has been hard on me these few days. My parents don't know abt what I'm going through, but it's tougher in the real world I'm in. much tougher. I find I express myself better in writting than in speaking. I don't know why though. I suppose the reason may be that I truly am an introvert. But I guess I'm a mild one at that. I talk, it's not that I don't, it's just that if given the chance, I would be happy not to talk for days. It's because of the circumstances and situations I'm in that change the way I am. I'm not unhappy about being more social, it's just that sometimes, when I look at myself from the outside, I find myself so alone. truthfully, I see myself as totally alone. I have 'friends' as people call them, but none truely understands or knows who I am. Maybe that's why I distance myself. From people I mean.