I woke up this morning crying.

I didn't realise it at first, but then a tear ran down my cheek. It was then that I felt my pillow's dampness. The last thing that happened in my dream was me shouting at my dad. He had done nothing to protect me from the sales' staffs harsh words, as well as my mum and I was feeling the most betrayed by him.

I know I was shouting and crying and yet he refused to listen to me. He just kept on talking and talking, refusing to listen to me. I was so frustrated. Even when I woke up and forgot most things, I remembered the feeling I had when I was shouting at my dad. It was the worst I've ever felt. I don't think I will forget this anytime soon.

Once I woke up, I could still remember some things from it, but I didn't want to because then I couldn't stop crying. So I calmed myself and went to the toilet to wash my face. I could see that my eyelids were swollen in the mirror. Splashing cold water seemed to help a little, but still, I could feel sinking feeling in my heart.

After that, It was like the water had cleansed me from my dream. I don't remember so much anymore. I only remembered that inccident with my father. That's all. I feel really hurt right now, even though it was just a dream. I don't know if it will turn out to be true though. I fear this because it has happened in my family that whatever dreams that we feel really emotionally linked to, it turns out to be true and it becomes reality.

I'll be okay eventually I think. I hope so anyway. I hope so.

Being at the Fair(suntec city) has put some things into perspective for me. Firstly, I can now understand my parents a little better and secondly, the business and lastly (also unfortunately)singaporeans a little better.

In business, there are a lot of grey areas and really, to succeed, you've got to be able to foresee those areas in which problems will arise. My mother did a good job on planning the booth. She also did a good job in booking the booth in exactly the right place. A little more to the left and we probably wouldn't have as much business to look forward to.

Now sadly, I can't say that I'm all too pleased about the way some of these singaporean customers act. They are absolutely vicious! Really vile things they are. Firstly, they bought a meagre pack. Then, they've got the guts to ask for a free gift! Then of all things, after we've politely and very thoughtfully obliged, they have the CHEEK to tell us that the free gifts are cheap!? What the hell do they expect! Coffee at starbuck with a $20 voucher for expressions so that they can skimmy their way into something remotely looking like a nice dress?! ARGHHHH! I really feel like stranggling them in their wake. Oh and there was this one customer that really got to me.

Firstly, she was so irritating, asking sooo many questions that were really so retarded. Then, she asked for a free gift. When I gave it to her. She asked for some more so that all her kids could have one. Now although irritated, I really didn't mind THAT much. Oh then, the next thing that happened really made me want to take out my machine gun and pummel her with at LEAST a million and one bullets.

Her sister now asked for a free gift too so that her daughter wouldn't complain! AND that BLOODY OAF which didn't even resemble a human didn't even buy anything from us and she expects a free gift? My god what has the world come to!!!! I'm shocked. REALLY.

I can't believe how some of these singaporeans are such bloodsucking theives. I truely spit at the. They don't deserve anyones pity and if in the end they do not succeed in life, I tell you they deserve the life of a miser. I wish that frog and evil toads rain down on them. Ahhh....the image really does calm me down.

Oh well, that's life for you, I'm so lucky I didn't explode in front of her face! REally I am. Such bitches they are. Usually it's the women that give so much trouble. The men aren't too bad, although they do have their moments where a machine gun would have been lacking in the importence of my need to kill. Something like a bazooka would have been better. Sigh....I think life really has a way of getting my panties in a bunch.
Okay, i gotta go...my father's oulling the plug out of the computer already.

Adios Amegos!!